Bit of a crazy week

Trying to find routine when there is no possible way of having a ‘normal, set’ work week, is hard. I don’t know what to do at times.

There have been days recently when I just want to have a day to myself, just “chill the EFF out”, but I can’t. Least not properly. There is always tasks that needs to be done, either around the house, in town. Whatever. Cleaning, cooking, gardening, and yet if I had more than maybe one day off, I would enjoy being able to do all of that, especially on a lovely, sunny day like today. But not right now, it just seems more of a chore, than anything else.

And the worst thing about it, I procrastinate something terrible. I’ll admit that. Finding something menial to do instead of the real task, least for a while.

I’d love to go back to having just a regular routine, with normal hours where I can go out, meet people, make friends, and at least seem like the social butterfly I portray at work currently. But… trying to find the right job that can allow for that now, is not possible.

I keep looking, and asking, though I try not to get my hopes up too high, least for now. I’d love to get into doing this – writing, for a job. But there is not really anything like that around for the moment.

Well, not sure on what else to say, except that it has been an all-over the place sort of day, and then back to the grindstone tomorrow. Least the work day is a short one, and I get the afternoon to potter around the house and garden.

Till next time.

~ Darlene

Weird… Am I a little Psychic?

You ever think of something that would be a laugh if it ACTUALLY happened, and then not long after that, it kind of does? Like you just projected into the ether of the Universe and it comes back to you?

Well, I’m pretty sure I just experienced that today when I had finished work and made a quick trip into town. Let me lay it out.

My thought was that of someone I knew from Auckland to randomly (and I do mean RANDOMLY) be down in Gisborne, knows where I’m working and just comes and says “Hey, what’s up?” or whatever. I literally thought this just a few days ago. Wednesday, I think.

Anywho, I didn’t think much more of it, until I was in town at the local book store – I was checking to see if one of the books I ordered was in, and it was! Anyway, while I was at the counter, I happened to turn around and I had to do a double-take. Someone I went to Uni with, and whose daughter I went to High school with WAS IN THE SHOP!

At first I thought, “Nah! Must just be a look-a-like” or something. So, just to see either way, I said “Why Hello.” (or something to that effect) she looked up and lo-behold it was who I thought it was. We spoke for a bit – about when I moved down, why she was in town, my previous work, etc. And it was so lovely just to see someone I knew prior to moving to Gisborne.

It wasn’t till I was driving home that I thought that maybe, just MAYBE, I had somehow influenced that happening somehow. Could I have sent it out and it came back to me this way? Am I in some way a wee bit PSYCHIC? I doubt it, but a book I am currently reading says that some people may have a bit of a sixth sense, can talk to or even see spirits, so who knows.

On another quick note, I sometimes have had some dreams years ago and then somehow… they happen to me EXACTLY as they did in the dream years before. And when that has happened, I feel like I’m experiencing deja-vu. It’s weird. I even momentarily stop and back-track on what the hell just went down…

But anyway, it sort of made my day seeing someone I had not actually seen in almost a year. I was smiling all the way home after that, and still am as I finish writing this up.

Until next time.

x D

Finding Motivation to write… ANYTHING

Another long gap, and though a few changes have come about, I just wasn’t feeling the motivation to be able to put them down into writing.

Sadly, I wasn’t finding any motivation to write anything, even with my studies, review blog, or video making. I’ve just been either trying to relax after tasks I set myself, both at work and at home and just hadn’t found anything to write or talk about really.

However, saying this now, I am currently in the process of writing a review of a book I am currently reading, and am finding it a good read so far. I just wish I had a bit more motivation to get back into it properly, both with reviews and study.

Maybe I will see something and just get a sudden burst and words will just pour out like a waterfall. Heres hoping. Anyway, just a short vent today, nothing too big. Just wanted to try and put my thoughts into words I guess.