Finding Motivation to write… ANYTHING

Another long gap, and though a few changes have come about, I just wasn’t feeling the motivation to be able to put them down into writing.

Sadly, I wasn’t finding any motivation to write anything, even with my studies, review blog, or video making. I’ve just been either trying to relax after tasks I set myself, both at work and at home and just hadn’t found anything to write or talk about really.

However, saying this now, I am currently in the process of writing a review of a book I am currently reading, and am finding it a good read so far. I just wish I had a bit more motivation to get back into it properly, both with reviews and study.

Maybe I will see something and just get a sudden burst and words will just pour out like a waterfall. Heres hoping. Anyway, just a short vent today, nothing too big. Just wanted to try and put my thoughts into words I guess.

Freaking out here!!!

I’ll admit, at times I have to go back and look at something again before I notice that I just blurt out random thoughts. Much like writing this blog.

I almost actually have to write things down (by hand… urgh. Sore wrist), sort through them, and then actually put them into comprehensive words  that make sense.

Like my previous blog. Though I may have made it sound like Reuban was getting me to write down what it is we’re doing – our thoughts, processes and what have, it wasn’t that at all. I want to be a writer. I love writing. And it was this way that he thought that I could be able to do this, and even go and get my name out into the blog-sphere (if that’s what it’s called).

Even when I’m writing essays for assignments, I can go back, change a word, a sentence, to make it flow better. With blogging, though I can edit it once it has been posted, it doesn’t seem to flow as well.

Hence why it does take me a while to follow up with another post.

But anyway, plans are still on the go path. I am (very) slowly, starting to sort through my junk (polite word use) and sorting through what it is that I want to take when we find a place to move.

And I’ll admit, I have accumulated A LOT of … “Junk”. Though I might not be ruthless enough at times, I am trying to be. A long weekend is coming up – ANZAC Day in New Zealand, and I would be working on this a lot more, if I didn’t have a crucial 4000 word assignment to have done.

I also have to work on the public holiday, which is good. More $$ for me!! Yet, I can’t help but also think that I lose a day of other productive work, whether it be sorting, or writing my assignment. I can’t win. And I freak the *bleep* out over it at times.

Believe me, I am nowhere near ready to move out of home at this very moment, but I do try to do something major every day. Like today. I came into Uni so that I don’t end up distracting myself with TV shows and reading so that I can work on my assignment – doing well considering I’m writing on my blog (haha).

At least I am trying, right?

Do, or Do not Urgh, yeah. Thanks Yoda. Now that just makes it worse. (Shut up, Yoda)

Academic reading is just so long at times. If it’s on something that you have no fancy over, you’d just end up looking to something else.

Though, with my topic at this moment, I am enjoying it. Heck, I’m doing a class specifically ON what it is I am writing for the 4000 word assignment!! It’s just so hard to try and find sources that can be of a great help in the area of research.

Well, better get back into it. Only another 3000 words to go… Yay!!