Bit of a crazy week

Trying to find routine when there is no possible way of having a ‘normal, set’ work week, is hard. I don’t know what to do at times.

There have been days recently when I just want to have a day to myself, just “chill the EFF out”, but I can’t. Least not properly. There is always tasks that needs to be done, either around the house, in town. Whatever. Cleaning, cooking, gardening, and yet if I had more than maybe one day off, I would enjoy being able to do all of that, especially on a lovely, sunny day like today. But not right now, it just seems more of a chore, than anything else.

And the worst thing about it, I procrastinate something terrible. I’ll admit that. Finding something menial to do instead of the real task, least for a while.

I’d love to go back to having just a regular routine, with normal hours where I can go out, meet people, make friends, and at least seem like the social butterfly I portray at work currently. But… trying to find the right job that can allow for that now, is not possible.

I keep looking, and asking, though I try not to get my hopes up too high, least for now. I’d love to get into doing this – writing, for a job. But there is not really anything like that around for the moment.

Well, not sure on what else to say, except that it has been an all-over the place sort of day, and then back to the grindstone tomorrow. Least the work day is a short one, and I get the afternoon to potter around the house and garden.

Till next time.

~ Darlene

Home life. Cooking, cleaning, etc.

It is amazing on what can be done in just one day, given the way the day now seems to go by so fast. The amount of tasks that I try to set myself most days may be a bit much; such as washing, cleaning, cooking, and even meal prepping, but once I get started, I just keep going.

Today for example, I hope to get some deep cleaning done in the kitchen, as some previous visitors have left quite a mess on the surfaces. *cough*flies*cough* And then, once I start, I find them all over the house, and want to do the entire place, floor to ceiling.

And do I find it all annoying? The tasks of housework and maintaining a home?

Surprisingly, … No. I’m actually finding relief in it. Since I am still unable to find paid work to go out and do – least for the moment, I just get stuck into keeping the house as tidy and as clean as I can.

Least the only pest we get inside now are flies, what with the heat some days with the New Zealand summer slowly approaching. When we first moved in, there was a massive swarm of wasps in the lounge. Yes. Wasps!

Though thankfully, they were all a bit dozed when we found them, as it was in the middle of the Winter season. So, all we did was douse the buggers with fly spray – even though it wouldn’t likely kill them outright, and them swepped them up and took them outside. I despise wasps with a passion, it gave me the shivers when I took them away. Still does just at the thought.

They still appear outside, as we live in an area full of orchards – rotten fruit seems to attract them in, but I keep well away from them and try my best to keep them outside.

Can anyone tell me what they are called?
Can anyone tell me what they are called?

The image above is as close to how they looked when I see them, if anyone is able to tell me what they are would be great. Just in the case of getting stung by them and I could be allergic.

Going back to a previous thought, I also find relief in cooking. Getting the meals sorted for dinner, or even lunches is almost therapeutic. Guess it must be a part of me, as my Poppa use to do a lot of catering for local events back in Auckland, as well as at the old family home some nights.

And his skills have been passed down, through his daughters (my mum and her sisters) and to the following generation. At times, it makes me feel close to him, in a way I wish I had tried to do more so when he was alive.

Time to get back into it all, I guess. I’ve blabbered on long enough with this post, I think. I might even do a post on what I’m cooking for tonight, when I get the chance.