So many changes… work, cars… what’s next

I keep meaning to post updates here, but either I have been too busy with work, or I wasn’t sure on what to post about really.

So, I may just go through with some recent changes that have happened to us in Gisborne.

First off, work. I have ended up gaining more hours of late, with some of the staff leaving for another job, retiring or even health issues. I have also become a cashier instead of fore-courter. Least for the last month or so. Which is great, to an extent. I hate the idea of moaning on about it, but with a number of hours gained and still no-one else to talk to proper down here… but, it sucks. I would relish the idea of a normal working week.

Next, and a bit of a story to tell. My first drive means has kicked the bucket, of sorts. My car had been overheating for some time, and we still cannot quite work out why. So, for two weeks Reuban and I test drove a couple of cars we were looking at.

Toyota Corolla, Suzuki Swift, Mitsubishi Lancer, and a Honda Civic were the ones we were able to drive. They all had their perks, no doubt, but in the end, it came down to two – the Swift and the Civic. And then one simply due to the price difference.

I have to say, I thoroughly love it. I have been driving it for just over two weeks now and it is a dream. So quiet, surprisingly economical on gas, zippy, and the space! My word the space I have now. A back seat, a boot that can hold all the groceries and more. The power is almost laughable in comparison to my last car. Where that was a two litre non turbo, the Swift is a one litre turbo. 

I kid you not on that. There is so many other little bits and pieces about it that I can’t go into full detail in just one post. I just find it amazing and already it has clocked up just over 600 kilometres. It still amazes me on how quick those have piled up, but with all of those, I have only ever put fuel into it once. 

We’re still in shock that we now own this, as well as a house with land. What will be the next big venture I wonder… 

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Bit of a crazy week

Trying to find routine when there is no possible way of having a ‘normal, set’ work week, is hard. I don’t know what to do at times.

There have been days recently when I just want to have a day to myself, just “chill the EFF out”, but I can’t. Least not properly. There is always tasks that needs to be done, either around the house, in town. Whatever. Cleaning, cooking, gardening, and yet if I had more than maybe one day off, I would enjoy being able to do all of that, especially on a lovely, sunny day like today. But not right now, it just seems more of a chore, than anything else.

And the worst thing about it, I procrastinate something terrible. I’ll admit that. Finding something menial to do instead of the real task, least for a while.

I’d love to go back to having just a regular routine, with normal hours where I can go out, meet people, make friends, and at least seem like the social butterfly I portray at work currently. But… trying to find the right job that can allow for that now, is not possible.

I keep looking, and asking, though I try not to get my hopes up too high, least for now. I’d love to get into doing this – writing, for a job. But there is not really anything like that around for the moment.

Well, not sure on what else to say, except that it has been an all-over the place sort of day, and then back to the grindstone tomorrow. Least the work day is a short one, and I get the afternoon to potter around the house and garden.

Till next time.

~ Darlene

Weird… Am I a little Psychic?

You ever think of something that would be a laugh if it ACTUALLY happened, and then not long after that, it kind of does? Like you just projected into the ether of the Universe and it comes back to you?

Well, I’m pretty sure I just experienced that today when I had finished work and made a quick trip into town. Let me lay it out.

My thought was that of someone I knew from Auckland to randomly (and I do mean RANDOMLY) be down in Gisborne, knows where I’m working and just comes and says “Hey, what’s up?” or whatever. I literally thought this just a few days ago. Wednesday, I think.

Anywho, I didn’t think much more of it, until I was in town at the local book store – I was checking to see if one of the books I ordered was in, and it was! Anyway, while I was at the counter, I happened to turn around and I had to do a double-take. Someone I went to Uni with, and whose daughter I went to High school with WAS IN THE SHOP!

At first I thought, “Nah! Must just be a look-a-like” or something. So, just to see either way, I said “Why Hello.” (or something to that effect) she looked up and lo-behold it was who I thought it was. We spoke for a bit – about when I moved down, why she was in town, my previous work, etc. And it was so lovely just to see someone I knew prior to moving to Gisborne.

It wasn’t till I was driving home that I thought that maybe, just MAYBE, I had somehow influenced that happening somehow. Could I have sent it out and it came back to me this way? Am I in some way a wee bit PSYCHIC? I doubt it, but a book I am currently reading says that some people may have a bit of a sixth sense, can talk to or even see spirits, so who knows.

On another quick note, I sometimes have had some dreams years ago and then somehow… they happen to me EXACTLY as they did in the dream years before. And when that has happened, I feel like I’m experiencing deja-vu. It’s weird. I even momentarily stop and back-track on what the hell just went down…

But anyway, it sort of made my day seeing someone I had not actually seen in almost a year. I was smiling all the way home after that, and still am as I finish writing this up.

Until next time.

x D

Finding Motivation to write… ANYTHING

Another long gap, and though a few changes have come about, I just wasn’t feeling the motivation to be able to put them down into writing.

Sadly, I wasn’t finding any motivation to write anything, even with my studies, review blog, or video making. I’ve just been either trying to relax after tasks I set myself, both at work and at home and just hadn’t found anything to write or talk about really.

However, saying this now, I am currently in the process of writing a review of a book I am currently reading, and am finding it a good read so far. I just wish I had a bit more motivation to get back into it properly, both with reviews and study.

Maybe I will see something and just get a sudden burst and words will just pour out like a waterfall. Heres hoping. Anyway, just a short vent today, nothing too big. Just wanted to try and put my thoughts into words I guess.

Latest News – So Proud…

It’s rather ironic, from what I wrote in the last post here. Keeping my fingers crossed certainly paid off for work. As of this moment, I have been working at a local service/petrol station as their new forecourt person.

With this position, even with it being only part-time is great. I am able to meet new people, some from within Gisborne township, some who live in the outer areas – like Reuban and I, or further – and even visitors and tourists coming into the area.

Almost all the people I have spoken to have been lovely. Willing to chat, or even just to say hello and how their day is going. There may be the odd one or two that do not, but nothing I can do to change that, really.

Even more recently that I am proud of that I have accomplished since moving to Gisborne. I got my driving licence!

Admittedly, it is my restricted, but it is a step closer to getting my full one. I have been on my learners for so long, and had done the test before, I felt so worried that I might not get it.

But even with all that I did during the test, parroting the tester, talking to myself about what I saw on the road, I made only one critical error. And that was watching my speed. Thankfully I didn’t get anywhere near 60km/hr, as that would have been an instant fail, again.

Even the new licence had only just arrived this morning, I still cannot quite believe that I got it. I almost cried when the tester said I had passed. I was in a bit of a daze when he said that for a while afterwards.

The one part that I feel like I have not accomplished as well as I had hoped, was the work in regards to my studies. With the new amount of things to do at home and at work, I have not had a chance to get into writing more for my thesis, and have even applied for it to be put on hold for a few months, least until I can find a good routine with work, life and study.

Well, there is the latest updates from here, I do hope to write more soon, least when the time comes to write about them. Until next time readers. x

Home life. Cooking, cleaning, etc.

It is amazing on what can be done in just one day, given the way the day now seems to go by so fast. The amount of tasks that I try to set myself most days may be a bit much; such as washing, cleaning, cooking, and even meal prepping, but once I get started, I just keep going.

Today for example, I hope to get some deep cleaning done in the kitchen, as some previous visitors have left quite a mess on the surfaces. *cough*flies*cough* And then, once I start, I find them all over the house, and want to do the entire place, floor to ceiling.

And do I find it all annoying? The tasks of housework and maintaining a home?

Surprisingly, … No. I’m actually finding relief in it. Since I am still unable to find paid work to go out and do – least for the moment, I just get stuck into keeping the house as tidy and as clean as I can.

Least the only pest we get inside now are flies, what with the heat some days with the New Zealand summer slowly approaching. When we first moved in, there was a massive swarm of wasps in the lounge. Yes. Wasps!

Though thankfully, they were all a bit dozed when we found them, as it was in the middle of the Winter season. So, all we did was douse the buggers with fly spray – even though it wouldn’t likely kill them outright, and them swepped them up and took them outside. I despise wasps with a passion, it gave me the shivers when I took them away. Still does just at the thought.

They still appear outside, as we live in an area full of orchards – rotten fruit seems to attract them in, but I keep well away from them and try my best to keep them outside.

Can anyone tell me what they are called?
Can anyone tell me what they are called?

The image above is as close to how they looked when I see them, if anyone is able to tell me what they are would be great. Just in the case of getting stung by them and I could be allergic.

Going back to a previous thought, I also find relief in cooking. Getting the meals sorted for dinner, or even lunches is almost therapeutic. Guess it must be a part of me, as my Poppa use to do a lot of catering for local events back in Auckland, as well as at the old family home some nights.

And his skills have been passed down, through his daughters (my mum and her sisters) and to the following generation. At times, it makes me feel close to him, in a way I wish I had tried to do more so when he was alive.

Time to get back into it all, I guess. I’ve blabbered on long enough with this post, I think. I might even do a post on what I’m cooking for tonight, when I get the chance.

What to write about?

I’m not quite sure what to actually write about here, as I feel as if some of my more recent posts have been a rant on how I’m still looking for work, or no-one is hiring in the fields that I know about, and so on.

Sad thing is, that is really only the big ‘things’ that I find that would be writable in a sense. And at times, I just get frustrated more so at myself for it. I do want to have work – preferably outside of home, but if there is nothing going that I know I would be able to do… what else can I do?

It just feels like a never ending loop and at times I get in such a downward rut, I honestly don’t want to do anything else except just curl up under the bedsheets and wait for them to just swallow me up.

And then when I think that way, it makes me feel even more upset, and just giving up on everything. I try to feel strong. I try to appear confident. But at times… I just feel like I’m back to that shy, quiet five year old I was when I started school.

Onto something a bit more pleasant now, just to attempt to end this post on a better note than when it started.

Finally, FINALLY got into doing some actual research for my thesis study. It’s funny, to most, it would just seem like I’m trolling sites like Tumblr, but it is all part of the research.

If I hadn’t written about it before, I am studying to gain my Masters in Communication Studies and the area is in Popular Culture. Currently, I am in the process of writing it up, as well as looking for the items to be my analysis on the research.

What I am looking into specifically is on the use of GIF images by a group of fans of a television show. The show: Supernatural.

The Supernatural opening logo from Season 9
The Supernatural opening logo from Season 9

I am sure to some degree, everyone has heard of the show. But if not, here is a quick rundown – Two brothers driving around the continental US, hunting, fighting, and killing all the things that go bump in the night – the shows most famous quote is “Saving people, hunting things. The family business” which appears to show the signs of true fans of the show.

Ironically, when I first thought of studying this area, I was curious as to if there was a GIF image for everything in the Supernatural fandom. I kept seeing posts saying this on Facebook, Twitter, and even Instagram and I was wondering on if it is true. And so far, I have not been disappointed in what I have found.

Each GIF is relatable to what it has been posted to, and for most, they always seem to get a giggle out of me. Especially now that I have binged on the first nine seasons of the show and will get into season 10 some time tomorrow – thank you NETFLIX!

I would start on it now, but it is nearly half past 10 at night, and it has been a long, long day here. It will be one of the first things that I will be doing tomorrow once I am fully awake, and got the housework that needs doing done.

I think I might end it there for the night, I just needed a place to vent, especially on the first part of this post as it felt like it was slowly digging away at me and I would’ve ended up snapping – or crying to someone for no apparent reason. No worries now though. Least for the rest of the night, anyway.

I feel like I might loose it

Already now, it is now just two months away from the New Year, and I am feeling annoyed and frustrated at myself. I had this plan for how I saw myself by this point, but it just has not come to be as of yet.

I had hoped to have been working, even part time a few days a week by now, but still nothing has come up to where I have gotten a yes, we will take you on. Even for a 90 day trial period!

Some days I feel like I could cry into my research books, but then I remember there is other stuff that needs to be getting onto… Is that bad?

Am I doing, or saying something wrong on my applications, or in my interviews when I get them? I don’t know. At times I wish the responses gave some critical feedback on what to possibly say for future reference, instead of the “Sorry… Good luck in your future job hunting..” blah.

However, I am doing other things from home, apart from house-work and studying. Least to keep me sane for a time. I am thinking of making necklaces, possibly custom ones if anyone were to ask for them.

At the moment, I have a few almost ready, just needing a few final touches before I post them online, most likely on my ETSY account. Once I have them too my satisfaction, I will no doubt write about them on here, the steps on how I made them, how they look, and if they are liked by people.

I have seen a few necklaces like these before, and I was rather curious as to how they were made. Once I spotted a few of the items online, I thought that I’d give it a go. And it was rather soothing. Reading, and cross-stitch have normally been my go to for that, but with these necklaces in particular, I was surprised at how calmed I felt when they were all pieced together.

The ideas from my previous post, on doing drawings and getting them printed is still in the process, it just needs a bit more refining, as I am use to drawing by hand, even if it was tracing something else that I saw online.

Who knows, I may end up doing both jewellery and art prints. I just wish something would come up now, so that I could possibly pay to maybe get these ideas off the ground at all.

Brainstorming ideas for working at home

Since it has been just on four months since moving to Gisborne, and I haven’t been able to find a paid job, I’ve been contemplating on doing some designs for print and selling them online.

I have seen a few small companies start off like this, I even know of a few friends/acquaintances that do this in their spare time, or just as a creative outlet. I think I can draw okay, even on digital paper/computer, but I’m not sure on if I could get it going the way I would like to.

I have had a few ideas going on what I could go and do, but they all lead back to me finding paid work, so that I could go and buy said stuff to get it started. Such ideas were candle making, sewing clothes – both adult and child (maybe) but the design part of it was always going to be a part of it.

I have done a few sketches on an app on my laptop called Bamboo Paper, and they seem alright, even if they are only black and white. I have added colour to some, but might need to have someone do a look over, someone I don’t know that can give an honest, unbiased opinion on what I have done so far.

Here are some images that I did that I feel rather proud of. We are All Stars o_7e5168a0555a158d_003 o_7e5168a0555a158d_006

I have always enjoyed drawing/doodling, it’s the one thing I always do when I’m bored and have a pen/pencil in my hand. And if there was a way to even make a little money on the side, which doesn’t interfere with future work possibilities, family commitments, study or anything else would just be awesome.

How is it going? Let me start…

Well, we have hit the four month mark of living down here in Gisborne, and I will say that the change in location has been one for the memory banks. In both good and bad ways, of course.

Reuban and I have been home owners for 3 of the four months, and we still can’t get over it some nights. “This. Is. OURS!! We can do whatever we like with the house; and no one can tell us we can’t.” This comes up on nights when the TV is off and we’re either reading or gaming/writing on our computers and the house is… silent.

The only sounds we get are the neighbours sheep, pigs, and dogs, a few trucks, cars, and tractors driving past, and… that’s it. I can say that I do NOT miss the thrum of noise from the big smoke. AT ALL!!! Even if we were not on the main road, we still heard it from a few streets away back in Auckland. I would not be surprised if I could not fall asleep if and when I go back for a visit.

I can also say, with a bit of pride, my driving confidence has grown substantially in this time as well. Since Reuban is at work during the week, if there was something that was needed in town, and he was unable to go get it after work, or during a lunch break, I went and got it. The drive in is not that long, thankfully – about 15 to 20 minutes depending, and I have slowly but surely gotten to know the layout of the township of Gisborne.

If I could, I would take a video of my drive, but haven’t gotten around to that yet. And the people. My gosh, the people are just the nicest bunch I have ever met. So helpful, it is so nice to see. Not that I’m knocking the people I know back in Auckland, but I’ve had perfect strangers just smile, nod, and wave as I’ve walked/driven past. I never got much of that in Auckland, or at least the CBD.

Sadly though, I am still looking for some work, but I keep looking for ones that I know I could do. I just email my CV through and hope for the best. I will say that I am getting a few phone calls and email responses for a few, and not just the regular ‘generic’ response of “We have received your email, … , we will get in touch… blah blah…” but actual ‘human sounding/reading’ emails. I was shocked with some of the first few. I even got a posted letter response for one! What?!

Okay, I didn’t get the job, but a posted letter back. With a signature no less!! That was a BIG surprise, and I was not at all upset that I had missed out on a job. The fact that someone took the type to write this letter, sign it and POST it to me is just. Wow. I have NEVER seen that happen. EVER!! Something will come up, I’m sure. Just keeping my fingers (and toes) crossed and thinking positive is all I can do really.

And finally, slowly but surely, the house is feeling more like a home now. We’ve gotten almost all the photos up on the walls now. We even got a second bed just last week into one of the spare rooms, so now it doesn’t echo in there so much (haha). Only second-hand, but it does the job well.

Well, that’s all for now. I better go and get this dinner started before I loose all motivation on being productive. Until next time, keep smiling.