Home life. Cooking, cleaning, etc.

It is amazing on what can be done in just one day, given the way the day now seems to go by so fast. The amount of tasks that I try to set myself most days may be a bit much; such as washing, cleaning, cooking, and even meal prepping, but once I get started, I just keep going.

Today for example, I hope to get some deep cleaning done in the kitchen, as some previous visitors have left quite a mess on the surfaces. *cough*flies*cough* And then, once I start, I find them all over the house, and want to do the entire place, floor to ceiling.

And do I find it all annoying? The tasks of housework and maintaining a home?

Surprisingly, … No. I’m actually finding relief in it. Since I am still unable to find paid work to go out and do – least for the moment, I just get stuck into keeping the house as tidy and as clean as I can.

Least the only pest we get inside now are flies, what with the heat some days with the New Zealand summer slowly approaching. When we first moved in, there was a massive swarm of wasps in the lounge. Yes. Wasps!

Though thankfully, they were all a bit dozed when we found them, as it was in the middle of the Winter season. So, all we did was douse the buggers with fly spray – even though it wouldn’t likely kill them outright, and them swepped them up and took them outside. I despise wasps with a passion, it gave me the shivers when I took them away. Still does just at the thought.

They still appear outside, as we live in an area full of orchards – rotten fruit seems to attract them in, but I keep well away from them and try my best to keep them outside.

Can anyone tell me what they are called?
Can anyone tell me what they are called?

The image above is as close to how they looked when I see them, if anyone is able to tell me what they are would be great. Just in the case of getting stung by them and I could be allergic.

Going back to a previous thought, I also find relief in cooking. Getting the meals sorted for dinner, or even lunches is almost therapeutic. Guess it must be a part of me, as my Poppa use to do a lot of catering for local events back in Auckland, as well as at the old family home some nights.

And his skills have been passed down, through his daughters (my mum and her sisters) and to the following generation. At times, it makes me feel close to him, in a way I wish I had tried to do more so when he was alive.

Time to get back into it all, I guess. I’ve blabbered on long enough with this post, I think. I might even do a post on what I’m cooking for tonight, when I get the chance.

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What to write about?

I’m not quite sure what to actually write about here, as I feel as if some of my more recent posts have been a rant on how I’m still looking for work, or no-one is hiring in the fields that I know about, and so on.

Sad thing is, that is really only the big ‘things’ that I find that would be writable in a sense. And at times, I just get frustrated more so at myself for it. I do want to have work – preferably outside of home, but if there is nothing going that I know I would be able to do… what else can I do?

It just feels like a never ending loop and at times I get in such a downward rut, I honestly don’t want to do anything else except just curl up under the bedsheets and wait for them to just swallow me up.

And then when I think that way, it makes me feel even more upset, and just giving up on everything. I try to feel strong. I try to appear confident. But at times… I just feel like I’m back to that shy, quiet five year old I was when I started school.

Onto something a bit more pleasant now, just to attempt to end this post on a better note than when it started.

Finally, FINALLY got into doing some actual research for my thesis study. It’s funny, to most, it would just seem like I’m trolling sites like Tumblr, but it is all part of the research.

If I hadn’t written about it before, I am studying to gain my Masters in Communication Studies and the area is in Popular Culture. Currently, I am in the process of writing it up, as well as looking for the items to be my analysis on the research.

What I am looking into specifically is on the use of GIF images by a group of fans of a television show. The show: Supernatural.

The Supernatural opening logo from Season 9
The Supernatural opening logo from Season 9

I am sure to some degree, everyone has heard of the show. But if not, here is a quick rundown – Two brothers driving around the continental US, hunting, fighting, and killing all the things that go bump in the night – the shows most famous quote is “Saving people, hunting things. The family business” which appears to show the signs of true fans of the show.

Ironically, when I first thought of studying this area, I was curious as to if there was a GIF image for everything in the Supernatural fandom. I kept seeing posts saying this on Facebook, Twitter, and even Instagram and I was wondering on if it is true. And so far, I have not been disappointed in what I have found.

Each GIF is relatable to what it has been posted to, and for most, they always seem to get a giggle out of me. Especially now that I have binged on the first nine seasons of the show and will get into season 10 some time tomorrow – thank you NETFLIX!

I would start on it now, but it is nearly half past 10 at night, and it has been a long, long day here. It will be one of the first things that I will be doing tomorrow once I am fully awake, and got the housework that needs doing done.

I think I might end it there for the night, I just needed a place to vent, especially on the first part of this post as it felt like it was slowly digging away at me and I would’ve ended up snapping – or crying to someone for no apparent reason. No worries now though. Least for the rest of the night, anyway.

I feel like I might loose it

Already now, it is now just two months away from the New Year, and I am feeling annoyed and frustrated at myself. I had this plan for how I saw myself by this point, but it just has not come to be as of yet.

I had hoped to have been working, even part time a few days a week by now, but still nothing has come up to where I have gotten a yes, we will take you on. Even for a 90 day trial period!

Some days I feel like I could cry into my research books, but then I remember there is other stuff that needs to be getting onto… Is that bad?

Am I doing, or saying something wrong on my applications, or in my interviews when I get them? I don’t know. At times I wish the responses gave some critical feedback on what to possibly say for future reference, instead of the “Sorry… Good luck in your future job hunting..” blah.

However, I am doing other things from home, apart from house-work and studying. Least to keep me sane for a time. I am thinking of making necklaces, possibly custom ones if anyone were to ask for them.

At the moment, I have a few almost ready, just needing a few final touches before I post them online, most likely on my ETSY account. Once I have them too my satisfaction, I will no doubt write about them on here, the steps on how I made them, how they look, and if they are liked by people.

I have seen a few necklaces like these before, and I was rather curious as to how they were made. Once I spotted a few of the items online, I thought that I’d give it a go. And it was rather soothing. Reading, and cross-stitch have normally been my go to for that, but with these necklaces in particular, I was surprised at how calmed I felt when they were all pieced together.

The ideas from my previous post, on doing drawings and getting them printed is still in the process, it just needs a bit more refining, as I am use to drawing by hand, even if it was tracing something else that I saw online.

Who knows, I may end up doing both jewellery and art prints. I just wish something would come up now, so that I could possibly pay to maybe get these ideas off the ground at all.